When I started my mission, I would say that I was a pretty reserved
person. I liked to do my own thing, and be my own person, and that
meant not feeling the need to open up to other people. I had my family
and my friends and I didn't need to love anybody
else, I didn't need to open up to anybody else and let them love me. I
don't like to feel vulnerable, I don't think anybody really does, but
that is exactly what love does to us; it makes us vulnerable. And that
is something that scared me. Being here in Hungary
and representing the Lord has changed that though. I have come to
realize that there is no such thing as missionary work, if there is no
love. All of us here on missions can all tie our motivation back to one
thing: love. We love our Savior and because of that,
we chose to come half way across the world, leaving others that we love
behind, to share the message with others that He lives! That the man he
perfectly loves each and every single one of us is resurrected and lives
on, and that we, through Him, can also!
My time here in Hungary has taught me that you cant serve somebody if
you don't first love them. You might be able to go through the motions,
but the intent and the blessings will not be there! We met with an
investigator, and had a lesson with him in which
we informed him why we are here and asked him whether we can help him or
if we are just wasting his time, as he refuses to keep any commitments
or take any steps of faith. I realized that the whole time he has not
been progressing because he was too scared
of being vulnerable and finding out if there really is a God that loves
him. I in the same way, have been missing out on all the progression and
blessings because I have been scared of loving people and truly letting
others love me back. When I was able to
accept this, my mission changed! I wasn't trying to make our numbers
look good so that the Mission President would recognize our efforts,I
was no longer working hard to try and get leadership positions, I was no
longer having to motivate myself to go and tract
for hours on end. Why? Because I found my motivation! Choosing to love
all of our investigators, the members, and even just the people on the
streets has changed me. It has reminded me why I am here, and it has
allowed me to do things that I didn't know I was
capable of doing and reach the hearts of people that seemed completely
gone. I'm still not perfect at loving everybody, but as I have done my
best, I have seen the change it has made in my life these past few
weeks! Even though it may be "frightening" at times,
I'm ready to learn of the power it has and see the furthered blessings
it will bring in this work!
In addition to Zone conference, we were able to meet with a family
this week. They parents were baptized over 10 years ago while living in
California for a few years, but have been inactive ever since returning
to Hungary! We were able to get a hold of
them and set up to meet with the whole family! They have three kids, and
the oldest son is a swimmer! We spent the evening just getting to know
them and at the end shared a short Mormon message about the Family. It
went really well and they said they might
be able to come to church sometime! It was really neat! He even called
us later to tell us that he had emailed his Mormon friend in California
and told him all about our visit! We are really excited to be working
with their family, they are such great people!
Working with Sister Dorny has been a blast! I am so lucky to have
her as my greenie, she is such a great person! For Pday we had a fun
little adventure at Postelek, which involved climbing in the castle
ruins, me slipping down a muddy hill into a pile
of nettle and getting my bum muddy, and me falling off the teeter
totter! Clearly I am a skilled person! At least it provides
entertainment for the rest of the district haha! There will be a lot of
photos to follow! Hope you all have a great week! Love you!
Sok Szeretettel,
LeBaron Nővér
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